This week, if I've learned anything, I've learned that love does have the power to heal. Not puppy love, or that spurious (fake) stuff, but genuine love. We all need love to grow, and in order to return love to others. Love is healing me.
For those of you who didn't know, I suffered from anorexia and bulimia on and off for a while, and this summer it was to an extreme. I also have suffered from self injury for about 4 years now, and I can proudly say I am recovering from both. How? Love. I found Jesus as my savior this summer, really established a relationship with Him and His unfailing love has gotten me through my struggles. Love is healing my soul and my body alike.
As part of our deep conversation of the week last week, Laura and I shared our testimonies, what we had to go through in order to become what we are now. I realized I would have never been at this point of my life without the love, encouragement and kindness I have recieved in the past few months.
I remember not knowing what true love was. To me, the thought of having someone who would NEVER leave you was unfathomable and unreal. It's hard to believe that someone would always be there for me, especially when everyone that has said that has forsaken me at one point. We all have abandonment issues, some more than others. God will never neglect to love you, He will not abandon you. Even if you think God has forsaken you, it is you that has walked away..He's just waiting for your return.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
who are you?
"Character is what you are in the dark when no one but God is watching. Anyone can look good in front of an audience or friends, it is an entirely different thing to stand naked before God, to be known as you truly are on the inside."
This quote goes so well with the message we had on sunday. It's all about IDENTITY.
identity: the condition of being oneself or itself, and not another
Our true identity is not easy to see, especially if you're trying to figure out another person's identity.
What's your identity?
the crack head? the alcoholic? the whore? the Jesus freak? the designer diva? Some people see identities as what people do or their style of clothes. Some people see identities as the way people act, which would be fine...if our generation didn't act like someone they're not.
In our generation we have developed a way to become what others find "desirable", to hide our true identity to fit in. In a way, we have lost our identities. We don't remember or know who we really are.
"Anyone can look good in front of an audience or friends, but it is an entirely different thing to stand naked before God, to be truly known as you are on the inside."
We may be able to hide our identity from other people, but it is impossible to hide from God. We can hide a lot of things about our personality from people. For instance, I'm very talented when it comes to vocabulary. I can see a word and I will remember it and be able to define it even months later. Most people see the blonde hair and how ditzy I am and assume that I am stupid. That I can't POSSIBLY have a wide vocabulary.
The big thing there is, whenever we are labeled and given an identity...we usually accept it and think we cannot overcome this. For example, over years I have been called stupid, ditzy, a failure by my family and friends. I was constantly hearing critical remarks, it's all that filled my head. I began to believe them with all my heart. So I, in a way, became what others told me my identity is.
So many people go through that same thing, and it's depressing. Don't let them tell you what you are, because chances are they're wrong and it will just bring discontent. Part of being happy is being happy with yourself, and if you don't know who YOU are, then how can you be happy?
Only God knows who we are, so why not ask Him? He is always there for us when we call for Him, so why not take some time to get to know Him AND yourself! It's definitely not going to be a one minute thing though, this is a journey. A journey to happiness, to self acception, to becoming the best you that you can be. God knows exactly what you need to do to become the best you, He created you! He'll show you the way! How comforting is it to know that your Creator is showing you how to become the best you can be!
This quote goes so well with the message we had on sunday. It's all about IDENTITY.
identity: the condition of being oneself or itself, and not another
Our true identity is not easy to see, especially if you're trying to figure out another person's identity.
What's your identity?
the crack head? the alcoholic? the whore? the Jesus freak? the designer diva? Some people see identities as what people do or their style of clothes. Some people see identities as the way people act, which would be fine...if our generation didn't act like someone they're not.
In our generation we have developed a way to become what others find "desirable", to hide our true identity to fit in. In a way, we have lost our identities. We don't remember or know who we really are.
"Anyone can look good in front of an audience or friends, but it is an entirely different thing to stand naked before God, to be truly known as you are on the inside."
We may be able to hide our identity from other people, but it is impossible to hide from God. We can hide a lot of things about our personality from people. For instance, I'm very talented when it comes to vocabulary. I can see a word and I will remember it and be able to define it even months later. Most people see the blonde hair and how ditzy I am and assume that I am stupid. That I can't POSSIBLY have a wide vocabulary.
The big thing there is, whenever we are labeled and given an identity...we usually accept it and think we cannot overcome this. For example, over years I have been called stupid, ditzy, a failure by my family and friends. I was constantly hearing critical remarks, it's all that filled my head. I began to believe them with all my heart. So I, in a way, became what others told me my identity is.
So many people go through that same thing, and it's depressing. Don't let them tell you what you are, because chances are they're wrong and it will just bring discontent. Part of being happy is being happy with yourself, and if you don't know who YOU are, then how can you be happy?
Only God knows who we are, so why not ask Him? He is always there for us when we call for Him, so why not take some time to get to know Him AND yourself! It's definitely not going to be a one minute thing though, this is a journey. A journey to happiness, to self acception, to becoming the best you that you can be. God knows exactly what you need to do to become the best you, He created you! He'll show you the way! How comforting is it to know that your Creator is showing you how to become the best you can be!
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